Thag 19.1

Tālapuṭattheragāthā

“Kadā nuhaṁ pabbatakandarāsu, Ekākiyo addutiyo vihassaṁ; Aniccato sabbabhavaṁ vipassaṁ, Taṁ me idaṁ taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Tālapuṭa

Oh, when will I stay in a mountain cave, alone, with no companion, discerning all states of existence as impermanent? This hope of mine, when will it be?

Kadā nuhaṁ bhinnapaṭandharo muni, Kāsāvavattho amamo nirāso; Rāgañca dosañca tatheva mohaṁ, Hantvā sukhī pavanagato vihassaṁ.

Oh, when will I stay happily in the forest, a sage wearing a torn robe, dressed in ocher, unselfish, with no need for hope, with greed, hate, and delusion destroyed?

Kadā aniccaṁ vadharoganīḷaṁ, Kāyaṁ imaṁ maccujarāyupaddutaṁ; Vipassamāno vītabhayo vihassaṁ, Eko vane taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will I stay alone in the wood, fearless, discerning this body as impermanent, a nest of death and disease, harried by death and old age; when will it be?

Kadā nuhaṁ bhayajananiṁ dukhāvahaṁ, Taṇhālataṁ bahuvidhānuvattaniṁ; Paññāmayaṁ tikhiṇamasiṁ gahetvā, Chetvā vase tampi kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will I live, having grasped the sharp sword of wisdom and cut the creeper of craving that tangles around everything, the mother of fear, the bringer of suffering? When will it be?

Kadā nu paññāmayamuggatejaṁ, Satthaṁ isīnaṁ sahasādiyitvā; Māraṁ sasenaṁ sahasā bhañjissaṁ, Sīhāsane taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will I, seated on the lion’s throne, swiftly grasp the sword of the seers, forged by wisdom, of awesome might, and swiftly break Māra and his army? When will it be?

Kadā nuhaṁ sabbhi samāgamesu, Diṭṭho bhave dhammagarūhi tādibhi; Yāthāvadassīhi jitindriyehi, Padhāniyo taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will I be seen in the assemblies with those who are virtuous, unaffected, respecting the Dhamma, seeing things as they are, with faculties subdued? When will it be?

Kadā nu maṁ tandi khudā pipāsā, Vātātapā kīṭasarīsapā vā; Na bādhayissanti na taṁ giribbaje, Atthatthiyaṁ taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will I focus on my heart’s goal in the Mountainfold, free of oppression by laziness, hunger, thirst, wind, heat, bugs, and reptiles? When will it be?

Kadā nu kho yaṁ viditaṁ mahesinā, Cattāri saccāni sududdasāni; Samāhitatto satimā agacchaṁ, Paññāya taṁ taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will I, serene and mindful, understand the four truths, that were realized by the great seer, and are so very hard to see? When will it be?

Kadā nu rūpe amite ca sadde, Gandhe rase phusitabbe ca dhamme; Ādittatohaṁ samathehi yutto, Paññāya dacchaṁ tadidaṁ kadā me.

Oh, when will I, devoted to serenity, see with understanding the infinite sights, sounds, smells, tastes, touches, and ideas as burning? When will it be?

Kadā nuhaṁ dubbacanena vutto, Tato nimittaṁ vimano na hessaṁ; Atho pasatthopi tato nimittaṁ, Tuṭṭho na hessaṁ tadidaṁ kadā me.

Oh, when will I not be distraught because of criticism, nor elated because of praise? When will it be?

Kadā nu kaṭṭhe ca tiṇe latā ca, Khandhe imehaṁ amite ca dhamme; Ajjhattikāneva ca bāhirāni ca, Samaṁ tuleyyaṁ tadidaṁ kadā me.

Oh, when will I discern the aggregates and the infinite varieties of phenomena, those interior and exterior, as no more than wood, grass, and creepers? When will it be?

Kadā nu maṁ pāvusakālamegho, Navena toyena sacīvaraṁ vane; Isippayātamhi pathe vajantaṁ, Ovassate taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will the monsoon clouds in season freshly wet me in my robe in the forest, walking the path trodden by the seers? When will it be?

Kadā mayūrassa sikhaṇḍino vane, Dijassa sutvā girigabbhare rutaṁ; Paccuṭṭhahitvā amatassa pattiyā, Sañcintaye taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will I rise up, intent on attaining freedom from death, hearing, in the mountain cave, the cry of the crested peacock in the forest? When will it be?

Kadā nu gaṅgaṁ yamunaṁ sarassatiṁ, Pātālakhittaṁ vaḷavāmukhañca; Asajjamāno patareyyamiddhiyā, Vibhiṁsanaṁ taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will I cross by psychic power unobstructed the Ganges, Yamunā, and Sarasvatī; and that place where one is thrown in the abyss, the horrifying Mare’s Mouth? When will it be?

Kadā nu nāgova asaṅgacārī, Padālaye kāmaguṇesu chandaṁ; Nibbajjayaṁ sabbasubhaṁ nimittaṁ, Jhāne yuto taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will I be devoted to absorption, shunning all the signs of beauty, splitting apart desire for sensual stimulation, like an elephant that wanders free of ties? When will it be?

Kadā iṇaṭṭova daliddako nidhiṁ, Ārādhayitvā dhanikehi pīḷito; Tuṭṭho bhavissaṁ adhigamma sāsanaṁ, Mahesino taṁ nu kadā bhavissati.

Oh, when will I realize the teaching of the great seer and be content, like a pauper in debt harassed by creditors, who finds a hidden treasure? When will it be?

Bahūni vassāni tayāmhi yācito, ‘Agāravāsena alaṁ nu te idaṁ’; Taṁ dāni maṁ pabbajitaṁ samānaṁ, Kiṅkāraṇā citta tuvaṁ na yuñjasi.

For many years you begged me, “Enough of living in a house for you!” Why do you not urge me on, mind, now that I’ve gone forth as an ascetic?

Nanu ahaṁ citta tayāmhi yācito, ‘Giribbaje citrachadā vihaṅgamā’; Mahindaghosatthanitābhigajjino, Te taṁ ramessanti vanamhi jhāyinaṁ.

Didn’t you entice me, mind: “In the Mountainfold, the birds with colorful wings, greeting the thunder, Mahinda’s voice, will delight you as you meditate in the forest?”

Kulamhi mitte ca piye ca ñātake, Khiḍḍāratiṁ kāmaguṇañca loke; Sabbaṁ pahāya imamajjhupāgato, Athopi tvaṁ citta na mayha tussasi.

In my family circle, friends, loved ones, and relatives; and in the world, sports and play, and sensual pleasures; all these I gave up when I entered this life: and even then you’re not content with me, mind!

Mameva etaṁ na hi tvaṁ paresaṁ, Sannāhakāle paridevitena kiṁ; Sabbaṁ idaṁ calamiti pekkhamāno, Abhinikkhamiṁ amatapadaṁ jigīsaṁ.

This is mine alone, it doesn’t belong to others; when it is time to don your armor, why lament? Observing that all this is unstable, I went forth, seeking the state free of death.

Suyuttavādī dvipadānamuttamo, Mahābhisakko naradammasārathi; ‘Cittaṁ calaṁ makkaṭasannibhaṁ iti, Avītarāgena sudunnivārayaṁ’.

He whose words are well-composed, supreme among people, great physician, guide for those fit to train, said: “The mind fidgets like a monkey, so it’s very hard to control if you are not free of lust.”

Kāmā hi citrā madhurā manoramā, Aviddasū yattha sitā puthujjanā; Te dukkhamicchanti punabbhavesino, Cittena nītā niraye nirākatā.

Sensual pleasures are diverse, sweet, delightful; an ignorant ordinary person is bound to them. Seeking to be reborn again, they wish for suffering; led on by their mind, they’re banished to hell.

‘Mayūrakoñcābhirutamhi kānane, Dīpīhi byagghehi purakkhato vasaṁ; Kāye apekkhaṁ jaha mā virādhaya’, Itissu maṁ citta pure niyuñjasi.

“Staying in the grove resounding with cries of peacocks and herons, and adorned by leopards and tigers, abandon concern for the body, without fail!” So you used to urge me, mind.

‘Bhāvehi jhānāni ca indriyāni ca, Balāni bojjhaṅgasamādhibhāvanā; Tisso ca vijjā phusa buddhasāsane’, Itissu maṁ citta pure niyuñjasi.

“Develop the absorptions and spiritual faculties, the powers, awakening factors, and immersion; realize the three knowledges in the teaching of the Buddha!” So you used to urge me, mind.

‘Bhāvehi maggaṁ amatassa pattiyā, Niyyānikaṁ sabbadukhakkhayogadhaṁ; Aṭṭhaṅgikaṁ sabbakilesasodhanaṁ’, Itissu maṁ citta pure niyuñjasi.

“Develop the eightfold path to realize freedom from death emancipating, its objective being the end of all suffering, and cleansing all defilements!” So you used to urge me, mind.

‘Dukkhanti khandhe paṭipassa yoniso, Yato ca dukkhaṁ samudeti taṁ jaha; Idheva dukkhassa karohi antaṁ’, Itissu maṁ citta pure niyuñjasi.

“Reflect rationally on the aggregates as suffering, and abandon that from which suffering arises; make an end of suffering in this very life!” So you used to urge me, mind.

‘Aniccaṁ dukkhanti vipassa yoniso, Suññaṁ anattāti aghaṁ vadhanti ca; Manovicāre uparundha cetaso’, Itissu maṁ citta pure niyuñjasi.

“Rationally discern that impermanence is suffering, that emptiness is non-self, and that gloom is death. Uproot the wandering mind!” So you used to urge me, mind.

‘Muṇḍo virūpo abhisāpamāgato, Kapālahatthova kulesu bhikkhasu; Yuñjassu satthuvacane mahesino’, Itissu maṁ citta pure niyuñjasi.

“Bald, unsightly, accursed, seek alms amongst families, bowl in hand. Devote yourself to the word of the Teacher, the great seer!” So you used to urge me, mind.

‘Susaṁvutatto visikhantare caraṁ, Kulesu kāmesu asaṅgamānaso; Cando yathā dosinapuṇṇamāsiyā’, Itissu maṁ citta pure niyuñjasi.

“Wander among the street markets well-restrained, mentally unchained to families and sensual pleasures, like the full moon on a bright night!” So you used to urge me, mind.

‘Āraññiko hohi ca piṇḍapātiko, Sosāniko hohi ca paṁsukūliko; Nesajjiko hohi sadā dhute rato’, Itissu maṁ citta pure niyuñjasi.

“Be a wilderness-dweller and an alms-eater, one who lives in charnel grounds, a rag-robe wearer, one who never lies down, always delighting in ascetic practices.” So you used to urge me, mind.

Ropetva rukkhāni yathā phalesī, Mūle taruṁ chettu tameva icchasi; Tathūpamaṁ cittamidaṁ karosi, Yaṁ maṁ aniccamhi cale niyuñjasi.

Mind, when you urge me to the impermanent and unstable, you’re acting like someone who plants trees, then, when they’re about to fruit, wishes to cut down the very same trees.

Arūpa dūraṅgama ekacāri, Na te karissaṁ vacanaṁ idānihaṁ; Dukkhā hi kāmā kaṭukā mahabbhayā, Nibbānamevābhimano carissaṁ.

Incorporeal mind, far-traveler, lone-wanderer: I won’t do your bidding any more. Sensual pleasures are suffering, painful, and very dangerous; I’ll wander with my mind focused only on extinguishment.

Nāhaṁ alakkhyā ahirikkatāya vā, Na cittahetū na ca dūrakantanā; Ājīvahetū ca ahaṁ na nikkhamiṁ, Kato ca te citta paṭissavo mayā.

I didn’t go forth due to bad luck or shamelessness, or due to a whim or banishment, nor for the sake of a livelihood; it was because I agreed to the promise you made, mind.

‘Appicchatā sappurisehi vaṇṇitā, Makkhappahānaṁ vupasamo dukhassa’; Itissu maṁ citta tadā niyuñjasi, Idāni tvaṁ gacchasi pubbaciṇṇaṁ.

“Having few wishes, abandoning disparagement, the settling of suffering: these are praised by true persons.” So you used to urge me, mind, but now you keep on with your old habits!

Taṇhā avijjā ca piyāpiyañca, Subhāni rūpāni sukhā ca vedanā; Manāpiyā kāmaguṇā ca vantā, Vante ahaṁ āvamituṁ na ussahe.

Craving, ignorance, the loved and unloved, pretty sights, pleasant feelings, and the delightful kinds of sensual stimulation: I’ve vomited them up, I can’t swallow them back.

Sabbattha te citta vaco kataṁ mayā, Bahūsu jātīsu na mesi kopito; Ajjhattasambhavo kataññutāya te, Dukkhe ciraṁ saṁsaritaṁ tayā kate.

I’ve done your bidding everywhere, mind! For many births, I’ve done nothing to upset you. Yet the creation in myself is because of your ingratitude— for a long time I’ve transmigrated in the suffering you’ve made.

Tvaññeva no citta karosi brāhmaṇo, Tvaṁ khattiyo rājadasī karosi; Vessā ca suddā ca bhavāma ekadā, Devattanaṁ vāpi taveva vāhasā.

Only you, mind, make a brahmin; you make an aristocrat or a royal seer. Sometimes we become peasants or menials; and life as a god is also on account of you.

Taveva hetū asurā bhavāmase, Tvaṁmūlakaṁ nerayikā bhavāmase; Atho tiracchānagatāpi ekadā, Petattanaṁ vāpi taveva vāhasā.

You alone make us titans; because of you we’re born in hell. Then sometimes we become animals, and life as a ghost is also on account of you.

Nanu dubbhissasi maṁ punappunaṁ, Muhuṁ muhuṁ cāraṇikaṁva dassayaṁ; Ummattakeneva mayā palobhasi, Kiñcāpi te citta virādhitaṁ mayā.

Come what may, you won’t betray me again, dazzling me with your ever-changing display! You play with me like I’m mad— but how have I ever failed you, mind?

Idaṁ pure cittamacāri cārikaṁ, Yenicchakaṁ yatthakāmaṁ yathāsukhaṁ; Tadajjahaṁ niggahessāmi yoniso, Hatthippabhinnaṁ viya aṅkusaggaho.

In the past my mind wandered how it wished, where it liked, as it pleased. Now I’ll carefully guide it, as a trainer with a hook guides a rutting elephant.

Satthā ca me lokamimaṁ adhiṭṭhahi, Aniccato addhuvato asārato; Pakkhanda maṁ citta jinassa sāsane, Tārehi oghā mahatā suduttarā.

The teacher willed that this world appear to me as impermanent, unstable, insubstantial. Mind, let me leap into the victor’s teaching, carry me over the great flood, so hard to pass.

Na te idaṁ citta yathā purāṇakaṁ, Nāhaṁ alaṁ tuyha vase nivattituṁ; Mahesino pabbajitomhi sāsane, Na mādisā honti vināsadhārino.

Things have changed, mind! Nothing could make me return to your control! I’ve gone forth in the teaching of the great seer, those like me don’t come to ruin.

Nagā samuddā saritā vasundharā, Disā catasso vidisā adho divā; Sabbe aniccā tibhavā upaddutā, Kuhiṁ gato citta sukhaṁ ramissasi.

Mountains, oceans, rivers, the earth; the four quarters, the intermediate directions, below and in the sky; the three realms of existence are all impermanent and harried— where can you go to find happiness, mind?

Dhitipparaṁ kiṁ mama citta kāhisi, Na te alaṁ citta vasānuvattako; Na jātu bhastaṁ ubhatomukhaṁ chupe, Dhiratthu pūraṁ nava sotasandaniṁ.

Mind, what will you do to someone who has made the ultimate commitment? Nothing could make me a follower under your control, mind; I’d never touch a bellows with a mouth open at each end; curse this mortal frame flowing with nine streams!

Varāhaeṇeyyavigāḷhasevite, Pabbhārakuṭṭe pakateva sundare; Navambunā pāvusasitthakānane, Tahiṁ guhāgehagato ramissasi.

You’ve ascended the mountain peak, full of nature’s beauty, frequented by boars and antelopes, a grove sprinkled with fresh water in the monsoon; and there you’ll be happy in your cave-home.

Sunīlagīvā susikhā supekhunā, Sucittapattacchadanā vihaṅgamā; Sumañjughosatthanitābhigajjino, Te taṁ ramessanti vanamhi jhāyinaṁ.

Peacocks with beautiful necks and crests, colorful tail-feathers and wings, crying out at the resounding thunder: they’ll delight you as you meditate in the forest.

Vuṭṭhamhi deve caturaṅgule tiṇe, Sampupphite meghanibhamhi kānane; Nagantare viṭapisamo sayissaṁ, Taṁ me mudū hehiti tūlasannibhaṁ.

When the heavens have rained, and the grass is four inches high, and the grove is full of flowers like a cloud, between the mountains, like the fork of a tree, I’ll lie; it will be as soft as cotton-buds.

Tathā tu kassāmi yathāpi issaro, Yaṁ labbhati tenapi hotu me alaṁ; Na tāhaṁ kassāmi yathā atandito, Biḷārabhastaṁva yathā sumadditaṁ.

I’ll act rather as a master does: let whatever I get be enough for me. And that’s why I’ll make you as supple as a tireless worker makes a cat-skin bag.

Tathā tu kassāmi yathāpi issaro, Yaṁ labbhati tenapi hotu me alaṁ; Viriyena taṁ mayha vasānayissaṁ, Gajaṁva mattaṁ kusalaṅkusaggaho.

I’ll act rather as a master does: let whatever I get be enough for me. I’ll control you with my energy, as a skilled trainer controls an elephant with a hook.

Tayā sudantena avaṭṭhitena hi, Hayena yoggācariyova ujjunā; Pahomi maggaṁ paṭipajjituṁ sivaṁ, Cittānurakkhīhi sadā nisevitaṁ.

Now that you’re well-tamed and reliable, I can use you, like a trainer uses a straight-running horse, to practice the path of grace, cultivated by those who take care of their minds.

Ārammaṇe taṁ balasā nibandhisaṁ, Nāgaṁva thambhamhi daḷhāya rajjuyā; Taṁ me suguttaṁ satiyā subhāvitaṁ, Anissitaṁ sabbabhavesu hehisi.

I shall strongly fasten you to a meditation subject, as an elephant is tied to a post with firm rope. You’ll be well-guarded by me, well-developed by mindfulness, and unattached to rebirth in all states of existence.

Paññāya chetvā vipathānusārinaṁ, Yogena niggayha pathe nivesiya; Disvā samudayaṁ vibhavañca sambhavaṁ, Dāyādako hehisi aggavādino.

With wisdom you’ll cut short the one following the wrong path, curb them by meditation, and settle them on the right path. Having seen arising and passing away with respect to the cause of suffering, you’ll be an heir to the greatest teacher.

Catubbipallāsavasaṁ adhiṭṭhitaṁ, Gāmaṇḍalaṁva parinesi citta maṁ; Nanu saṁyojanabandhanacchidaṁ, Saṁsevase kāruṇikaṁ mahāmuniṁ.

Under the sway of the four distortions, mind, you dragged me around like a bull in a pit; but now you won’t associate with the great sage of compassion, the cutter of fetters and bonds?

Migo yathā seri sucittakānane, Rammaṁ giriṁ pāvusaabbhamāliniṁ; Anākule tattha nage ramissaṁ, Asaṁsayaṁ citta parā bhavissasi.

Like a deer roaming free in the colorful forest, I’ll ascend the lovely mountain wreathed in monsoon clouds, and rejoice to be on that hill, free of folk— there is no doubt you’ll perish, mind.

Ye tuyha chandena vasena vattino, Narā ca nārī ca anubhonti yaṁ sukhaṁ; Aviddasū māravasānuvattino, Bhavābhinandī tava citta sāvakā”ti.

The men and women who live under your will and command, whatever pleasure they experience, they are ignorant and fall under Māra’s control; loving life, they’re your disciples, mind.